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Thursday, May 25, 2006
3:12 AM

I'm sorry

feeling really sad......... STILL CANNOT BELIEVE THAT WE GOT OWN-ED

to make matters worse, now the sec 4s dunt look at us eye to eye........ anw, for those un-initiated, here are the scores of the 6-a-side hockey tournie (-IMPORTANT- READ : U-15)

St. Andrews 5 - 0 RI
Sengkang 3 - 0 RI
East View 1 - 0 RI

so that meant that RI finished bottom of the group and with NO GOALS to their name........ when the announcer announced this result, i vividly remember some guy who went like "wah, RI ZERO points arh?" that left a sinking feeling in me.......... im still -frankly- in shock.......

i noe i should not give excuses...... even the coach (teacher in charge and coach) expected no miracles..... after all, we were sec 1s!

but i would like to pour out my grievances...... im still very much depressed at such a horrible tournament

firstly, we were sec 1s facing sec 2s....... not JUST sec 2s,

these sec 2s were
-more experienced
-physically stronger
-taller and bigger (scrawny old me is considered above average height build already)
-more BRUTAL (ill elaborate later)

AND, in each group, only the top 2 qualify....... now, some background info

first of all, st. andrews were traditional powerhouses AND, most of them have been playing hockey since p2 (adding up to about 6 YEARS of hockey background) while 7 out of the 11 man strong team from ri have been playing hockey for only 5 MONTHS??????? and thats omitting the fact that these 7 guys were then playing their FIRST EVER COMPETITIVE 6-a-side match???

next, sengkang......... according to clinton and if my memory serves me well, i think i remembered clinton saying something about last year's RI team losing out to sengkang even with a PRO PRO PRO dribbler like balu, eugene (DSA) and PRO PRO players like clinton and jing......... we frankly, were MUCH MUCH weaker than last year's team...... i mean, not critisizing, but the 2 DSA out-field players we have arent exactly DRIBBLING KINGS or sumthing.......

i have not much to say about East View, except that we shld've beat them although they had 6 sec 2s vs 6 sec 1 starters

However, despite saying all these, i blame myself for playing a part in these losses.......
in the first match, i did not back track, and thus leaving the right flank exposed at times, resulting in possibly 2 or 3 outta the 5 goals, and for this, im terribly sorry

in the second match, i felt that 1 of the goals could be attributed to me....... i had allowed the opposing winger to out-run me and set-up the first goal......... again, IM TRULY sorry

in the last match, i blame myself the most.......... even though we let in a soft goal due to Kevin's RARE mistake, i was unable to even the score when the opportunity presented itself. i sped past 2 sec 2s, but just could not bring the ball to bear and score from that tight angle

i dunno why, but i think im one of the only 2 who started ALL 3 matches (other than kevin, the goalie) and like....... i juz feel very regretful that i could have done better...... wait....... i always feel i could've done better..........

SADNESS
REGRETFULNESS
REDEMPTION
IS
SWEET

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
3:25 AM

Freakin Tired

argh........ so damn freakin tired 2day and last nite........
hmm....... (and this time im not exxag. WC) we ran 2.4...... then we jogged approx. 1 km and sprinted 1 km........... and not to mention doing 200 crunches, 200 push-ups and 200 half squats that later turned into full squats........

SO FREAKIN TIRED!!!!!!!!!
even my dad complained lar...... he says that b4 hockey competitions, must rest or do some conditioning, NOT strain 1 WEEK BEFORE the competition........ and i agree.......

but then again, that gave me excuse to not do any work yesterday =) i was juz lying about, dozing and waking, drifting in and out of consciousness........ basically, SLACKING......

AND,

i also skipped NAPFA 2.4 for another day........... i complain to my friendly PE teacher that got competition on monday and tuesday (which isnt wholly true) and that we did 4.8 km (which also isnt true either) and 200 blah blah blah (WHICH IS DEFINITELY TRUE) and so like i get to opt out for thursday........... WOOT? i wonder......... if the coach is as strict or even stricter tmr (wednesday, or should i say, 1 day b4 thursday........)then die liao

anw....... hockey so roxs! =) all those who hvnt played it really misses out on loads man.... =P

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Thursday, May 11, 2006
5:54 AM

Hockey teams

........ i really dunno how to react.........

today was the first day that i came back to school after a one week layoff..... and well, there was some hockey stuff to settle so...... im happy, or well, i should be happy, not that im not but..... -GAH- im getting myself confused......

but basically, here is how it played out

me the BIG IDIOT who didnt turn up for the hockey selection trials was going to school prepared for some disappointment or mebbe a fight for a place(EVEN A CHANCE WILL DO!) to represent ri playing hockey................. so i went

then in the morning, i go clock tower and then WHAM, jing and clinton were standing there and gave me a form for some tournie and i was like wth? why r u giving me for? i nvr go selection?

BUT DANG WAS I HAPPY!

i nvr went for selection still got into the div 3 league and SHF tournie (which will be mostly sec 2s, but hey! im not complaining) i was like THANKING MY LUCKY STARS lar! oh, and hell was i damn happy......... so my thoughts were like 2 down, 1 to go......

then i met dewin and like he was cursing me lar.........

i really dunno whether the competition was a good thing or not now... seriously, i dunt......

i got into the competition, but then i took the place instead of dewin.......... and now dewin is all hostile towards me in hockey...... sigh......... feeling very upset now...... one is my good fren in hockey, another is a competition i REALLY REALLY want to play in........ sigh............. GAH!

dewin is like really cursing or hitting me coz he says i nvr went for selection and i dunno whether he really means it when he says i sux or that i suck more than him........ it feels really bad lar....... he is a good fren, and he also wants that spot in the team but as there is only 1 slot, there cant be 2 ppl filling it.............. BLEAUGH

then there is the other matter........... 6-a-side tournie........... well, thats the crux, i still am QUITE in the dark...... according to the 2 hockey I/Cs, they were SUPPOSED to be picking a 10-man strong squad, so like it was supposed to mean that i was not suppposed to be included......... but then mr eric comes to blast away that frail reality by saying they were NOW picking 11 ppl....... i was like ok, ok, so wat..... not done yet, i was no. 12 rite? was i in?

so i went to ask him and he told me i would now replace number 11 (the coach ranked us by numbers, 1 being goalie, then 2 onwards the best and so on.....) and like i was no longer squad number 12 and was THUS in the team, regardless that i didnt go for selection.......

so that means, ill be effectively taking mike's place, who is ALSO an esp good fren of mine in hockey.......... sigh....... double-whammy...... i dunno how he'll react lar........ i really really dunno how man......... i can only hope that he wunt turn hostile against me.........

i juz dunno why.......... i mean, i must hv done quite well during hockey practise previously to have gotten into the 6-a-side without going for selection or the fact that i got selected for the 11-a-side.......... but i juz cant feel a bit guilty that im taking -to some, stealing- two of my esp good frens places in the team.......................

BLEAUGH

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