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Thursday, May 11, 2006
5:54 AM

Hockey teams

........ i really dunno how to react.........

today was the first day that i came back to school after a one week layoff..... and well, there was some hockey stuff to settle so...... im happy, or well, i should be happy, not that im not but..... -GAH- im getting myself confused......

but basically, here is how it played out

me the BIG IDIOT who didnt turn up for the hockey selection trials was going to school prepared for some disappointment or mebbe a fight for a place(EVEN A CHANCE WILL DO!) to represent ri playing hockey................. so i went

then in the morning, i go clock tower and then WHAM, jing and clinton were standing there and gave me a form for some tournie and i was like wth? why r u giving me for? i nvr go selection?

BUT DANG WAS I HAPPY!

i nvr went for selection still got into the div 3 league and SHF tournie (which will be mostly sec 2s, but hey! im not complaining) i was like THANKING MY LUCKY STARS lar! oh, and hell was i damn happy......... so my thoughts were like 2 down, 1 to go......

then i met dewin and like he was cursing me lar.........

i really dunno whether the competition was a good thing or not now... seriously, i dunt......

i got into the competition, but then i took the place instead of dewin.......... and now dewin is all hostile towards me in hockey...... sigh......... feeling very upset now...... one is my good fren in hockey, another is a competition i REALLY REALLY want to play in........ sigh............. GAH!

dewin is like really cursing or hitting me coz he says i nvr went for selection and i dunno whether he really means it when he says i sux or that i suck more than him........ it feels really bad lar....... he is a good fren, and he also wants that spot in the team but as there is only 1 slot, there cant be 2 ppl filling it.............. BLEAUGH

then there is the other matter........... 6-a-side tournie........... well, thats the crux, i still am QUITE in the dark...... according to the 2 hockey I/Cs, they were SUPPOSED to be picking a 10-man strong squad, so like it was supposed to mean that i was not suppposed to be included......... but then mr eric comes to blast away that frail reality by saying they were NOW picking 11 ppl....... i was like ok, ok, so wat..... not done yet, i was no. 12 rite? was i in?

so i went to ask him and he told me i would now replace number 11 (the coach ranked us by numbers, 1 being goalie, then 2 onwards the best and so on.....) and like i was no longer squad number 12 and was THUS in the team, regardless that i didnt go for selection.......

so that means, ill be effectively taking mike's place, who is ALSO an esp good fren of mine in hockey.......... sigh....... double-whammy...... i dunno how he'll react lar........ i really really dunno how man......... i can only hope that he wunt turn hostile against me.........

i juz dunno why.......... i mean, i must hv done quite well during hockey practise previously to have gotten into the 6-a-side without going for selection or the fact that i got selected for the 11-a-side.......... but i juz cant feel a bit guilty that im taking -to some, stealing- two of my esp good frens places in the team.......................

BLEAUGH

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